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81 days in....

I've got finals next week. This means I'm going to put off studying until monday night and then freaking out.

Good plan.

Pulled Porc

I started a Hiking Club!

Central Missouri Hiking and Backpacking Club.

I'm sure hardly anyone will join, but at least it'll give me an excuse to get out there and actually enjoy myself.

Beard Progress: Combing is getting to be a hassle. Thats a good sign. :)

Tomorrow is sunday, the last day of my spring break. I'm ending it with a show tonight down at BottomFeeder Bay. Gonna be playing some bowed electric bass guitar. Hella awsome, though I know all the drunk college kids there won't know what the hell I'm doing. Oh well, nothing new.

Karl, You Silly Little Bitch.

Beard Progress.

I bought two Dell PowerEdge 2650 Servers from a hospital down in Clinton the other day. 50 bucks a pop. I got them home and realized they would not fit in the rack with all of my other cisco stuff, so I'm going to have to build another rack. This of course was realized even more when I turned one on for the first time and thought a jet engine was in my room.

This week's lesson: soundproofing

I'm also going to start working on refinishing my poker table. I hate sanding, but want it to be operational by the summer so I can have poker games out on the back porch.

I keep setting the curve on tests. Is my school really that stupid?

Thats all I have to talk about. Peace and love Chicago.

Wu-Tang, is that the drink from the 90's?

Its week three in my Applied Wellness plan. I am supposed to exercise three times a week. I haven't done a single pull-up. Good thing this is for an online class. Lying is a lot easier.

I've started painting a little bit. Not much, and not very well, but it's something I've always wanted to do. I'm finding that my main focus tends to be robots. I don't really know why, but I like it.

My beard has entered the state where it looks fairly silly. It's too long to look trimmed, and its too short to be acceptable. So I will wait. This picture is after a shower and it is quite fluffy.

I'm driving down to the state band concert tomorrow in the snow. I'm not really sure because I know it is just going to make me angry when I see my old girlfriend with the guy she dumped me for. But hey, thats the whole point of being a teenager. Making a big deal out of stupid stuff.

I Watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory the other day.

College is supposed to be the best years of your life right? You're supposed to go out and party, meet new people, try new things, have life changing revelations, reinvent yourself. None of that is happening. In fact I'm fairly certain I can say it sucks.

It's not like I have a bad life. I have enough money to get me to school and cover the bills. I've got lots of friends. I'm in school so at least there is a possibility at one point in the future I wont be poor. But I'm still not happy.

I would like to imagine there is something out there I just haven't found yet that will act as a catalyst and turn it all around. I don't think there is. And if it is out there I don't think I will be able to find it. I feel a sense of self imposed nihilism creeping up on me. I shouldn't be this cynical and self loathing this early in life. That's what your 40s are for right?

I'm not really sure how to explain how I feel. It's like there is something missing, as cheesy as that sounds, but there is nothing to miss.

My girlfriend dumped me last sunday. I'm pretty sad, but thats not why I feel the way I do. I knew she was going to dump me. In fact I'm surprised she stayed with me as long as she did. But now she wont talk to me. She says she just needs some time to adjust. I don't know what she would need to adjust to. It's not like she lost anything important to her. I guess I'm just being hateful when I shouldn't be.

It's interesting that people my age are beginning to show signs of where they are going in life. It's only the first year of college yet I can see who is going to be successful and who is going to stay put and not advance anywhere.

I feel like I'm being left behind.

Hoopla

Got my bands album done a week or so ago. It sounds pretty good. But my performance was terrible in it. Oh well.

My Girlfriend is angry at me. And I am angry at her. It was a good Christmas. I got a flash light and a nice utility knife.

My beard is beginning to look acceptable. Not nice mind you, but I have high standards. It's at the point where it recently began holding water when I get out of the shower.

Not enough time

Ok, so it's been over a month since I last posted something. Part of it has to do with the fact that I have very little time, and part of it has to do with the fact that really nothing exciting has happened.

My grandmother fell and broke her hip and wrist on her left side. I suppose that is exciting.

I've only got till wednesday for school. All of my finals on one day. Please punch me in the face. The only one that will be difficult is my algebra final. It's comprehensive, and I didn't understand any of it when I first learned it two months ago. But I think I can at least pass, which is all that matters I guess.

Well, I'll try to think of something good for the two people reading this. Over and out.

And I have cut him down in his prime.

I cut my beard off yesterday.

It was a terrible mistake.

I now remember all the reasons I had originally grown a beard. I was tired of being picked on. I was tired of looking like a 7 year old. I hated my chin. The list goes on. But it had to happen at some point, and the more I put it off the harder it would be. I made it two days shy of two years before lopping it off. I regret it, but my hope is that I will be able to grow an even more magnificent beard, especially with No-Shave-November comign up.

My chin is unbelievably sensitive right now. It spent two years being covered in hair and not being touched. all of a sudden its being bombarded with all different kinds of textures and temperatures. It's an odd sensation.

The good thing is that I learned I can grow quite an acceptable beard.

At it's longest it was a bit over a foot long, which is quite longer than most men my age could or would grow a beard. I am excited about my next beard and am hoping I will be able to keep it for several years, and begin competing.

Any way, to a dear friend, I miss you.

The Joy of Free

Free food.

It's pretty much the best thing in the world. If I never had to pay for food, I would be unemployed for my entire life. Food is one of the few things that are hard to find for free, when considering basic survival stuff.

They are having some kind of activity fair in the commons at my school today. They had free food. I ate a piece of chicken and some beans. It was cold, but again, free, so it was totaly worth eating it. I wasn't even hungry, but I'm pretty damn stingy so anything that I can get for free seems like a deal I can't pass up. I don't know what they were trying to promote, all I know is that they were playing Dave Mathews Band over the loud speakers and thats enought to have me convinced.

It's beginning to get quite cold in Missouri, and as I sat there eating my free food I counted the number of Carhart Jackets in that small lunch room. There were about 50 people in there. I counted 17 Carhart jackets. If you grew up in a rural area you understand how funny, and how common this is.

I can't wear Carhart jackets. I don't understand why someone would intentionally make themselves uncomfortable.

Well thats it for today. My thoughts are not really amounting to much. But I guess thats a sign of a stable environment.

I'm a big kid now.

Currently listening to: an interview with Charlie Boswell on the autism effect of technology in artistry.

Well I'm finally moved in.

It took a while. And there was some frustration.

But it happened.

I spent my first night there last night and didn't really see any difference from what I normally feel. It didn't seem like I was spending the night at a friends house. It didn't seem like a big deal. It just kind of seemed like I was home.

I had expected at least a sense of accomplishment, however I just felt like it was the logical next step, not neccessarily forward, just in some direction.

I'm excited, I'm fairly certain I can live away from my family responsibly and I think my parents will be surprised about how little trouble I get into.

I'll put some pictures of the finished house up in the next day or two, and maybe a video tour.

good shit.

Paddypompus

The title of this post reflects my current mood right now. That would be a sort of "eegghhhnnn......" I'm not sure how to explain it, but I'm preaty sure I could throw some apathy into the description. I'm sitting in one of the computer labs here waiting for my class to start in an hour. I wore my beard in hair ties today so I'm getting even more stares than normal. I kind of like the fact that people are so taken aback by a tuft of hair coming out of my face. I'm in the process of preparing to cut it off in the near future, and am dreading the moment when I actually do it. I went to a high school band competition last Saturday and was reminded why I loved having it. I can't count the amount of "woahs" and "holy shits" I got while walking past people. I guess I haven't been in a highly populated area in a while. Maybe I am just not used to the fearlessness High school kids have when they talk about people 4 feet away. Oh well. I will just have to wait another year to get the same reaction with my next beard.

I'm considering a full beard, at least that's what I'm planning on trying. I may decide to go without the moustache, which will really get me a lot of shit about being amish.

The kid in the row in front of me is playing with his magic cards. He does that in my Networking class too. He must be really good. I wonder if that's ever going to help him in life.

Chili supper tonight, I'm excited. It's the first time I get to go because I'm not performing with the band and I'm not worried about losing my supper while marching. I miss marching band a lot more than I figured i would. Even the cold, 6:30 am practices on that muddy field. Oh well. At least I'm getting a decent amount of sleep now.

Stalled

currently listening to: nothing, because my psp ran out of battery.

Well I'm stuck. Over the past year I've learned a fairly large amount of web design in my own time and have been longing for a chance to showcase it. Finaly the opportunity arose when my mother asked me to make a web site for my brother, showcasing his skils in broadcasting. I immediately got down to work and came to an abrupt halt as he has failed to provide me with any material to put on it. No profile, not broadcasts, nothing. So I am patiently awaiting that. However, if you would like to see the website as it progresses, go to www.mikeothic.com and it should bring you there. It's preaty basic right now, but once I start integrating some flash it will rock your socks off.

Apparently Hoof and Mouth is a Big Problem Amongst Youngsters

Currently Listening to: Suture Up Your Future by Queens of the Stone Age

Well at the moment I am sitting in one of the computer labs on campus waiting for my first class of the day to start at 10. It's 8 now.

I have a test, but I'm not sure what it is over. Oh well, hopefully they will grade on a curve, because the rest of the kids in my class are even bigger idiots than me.

I worked on my house yesterday again. I am getting more and more excited and anxious every day about moving in. I'm sure there will be some ugly parts to living away from home and not in a dorm, but it seems like it will be so exhilarating at the same time. All we have to do is replace some flooring in the kitchen and laundry room, and paint the bedrooms and kitchen, and we can move in. I'm contemplating what color scheme to use in my room, because I want to paint a mural over it and need a good background color. Later today I am going to go with one of my room mates to lowes and look at area rugs for the living room. I've decided I can live with cheesy vinyl "hard wood" floors. It looks almost real. almost. Then we are going to go in and start taping everything to prep for painting. I hate painting walls.

Other than that, I don't have much to say. College is boring the majority of the time, but that's probably because I haven't really reached the meat and potatoes of my degree yet.

I will try to post some pictures of the house soon so the 2 people who read this blog can get an idea of what the next two years will be like for me. Cheers.

Sorry ladies and gentlemen.

Ok. so I didn't quite keep my promise about writing every day, but i've been a bit busy for the past week. Last sunday I bucked hay bales for the first time. I didn't think it would be that bad, but for the next two days I preaty much couldn't do anything. Then I had a big ol spaghetti fest with some friends to welcome back my close friend who just returned from basic. Two days later I began feeling a bit peckish and now I have strep throat. Just what I needed to start the school year. Which I am terrified about by the way. I'm not at all concerned about how well I will do. I mean the school is a community college so I should excell if anything. What I am worried about is showing up and finding out I have not completed some obscure thing for enrollment and I will actually have to start next year. This scenario keeps playing in my head and it terrifies me in it's chance of happening. Oh well. College is over rated.

By the way. I never proof read my work. I know there are miss spelled words and mistakes, but I really don't care. So don't correct me.

Currently listening to: Soft White Noise by Ned

So I went to my college orientation today. I must say I didn't realize I could get that frustrated that quickly. First off, it was one of the biggest wastes of time I have ever experienced. I would have gained the same amount of knowledge and experience had they handed me a map of campus and told me where the nearest bathroom was, as I did following these idiots around for two and a half hours. And secondly, I knew going into a community college I would have to deal with some stupid people, but man did I underestimate. I guess it doesn't help that the major population is made of people who "live on a farm jus' outside uh da city" as it was so beautifully phrased. Oh well, at least I don't have to live there and deal with those people 24/7. I am excited about starting school though. I thought I would begin to get nervous, but mostly I'm just wanting to get started and get going with my life.

That's all I really have to say for today. Oh did I forget to mention that I am going to try to post something at least everyother day? It probly wont last very long but who knows. Oh, and hopefully I will get some time to sit down and make this page look like something other than a cuccumber.

The Start

So I have decided to become the world's greatest and best known blogger. Ever. And I will begin with this post. So, those of you who actually view this will be able to say "I was there, in the beginning, I saw when it all started."